In Haptic Recall

Mixed media
132″ x 396″
Push your insides out, turn memory into mark, let what flows through body flow on to page. Spill your guts and poke them with a stick, see what’s twitching, scoop it up, put it in a jar, screw the lid on. Put the jar on a shelf with all the other twitchy bits and notice what they have in common. See what shrivels up to nothing, see what swells and multiplies. Take notes. Repeat process. Learn something? We can only hope.
How do we hold memory? How do memories hold us? Through drawing, painting, and installation, my work strives to embody moments of remembering and raise questions about the relationship between the body’s physical performance of memory and inscriptive practice.
In this undertaking, I see myself as both scientist and test subject, generating and cataloguing anatomical specimens of emotional engagement. My drawings originate from deep-seated physical reactions to vivid memories. Paying attention to my own bodily state – rushes of adrenaline, tightening of muscle, knotting of the gut – as I occupy states of recall, I generate figural forms that function as markers, or containers, of lived experience. My figures are organic and visceral, imagined biologies alluding to an interior dissected and penetrated. Taking an analytic step back, I arrange, classify, and connect, seeking systems of thought, anatomies of experience.