This is a video still taken from my single-channel video piece "I Had a Crush on Ryan" (2021). The still is from the beginning of the piece where I begin smearing pink paint on my forehead in front of the pink backdrop as part of the performance for the screen. The performance in its entirety features me gradually covering myself in pink paint as I recite different names who I feel played a part in my coming to terms with my queerness as I grew up.